Much like anybody else in their mid-late 20s I am currently in the midst of my “quarter life crisis” figuring things out. My life course has swerved all over the place, but thanks to this shiny new outlet of a site, I am far more comfortable with that. I was born in New York City in the hospital where the rich and famous go to conduct their hospital oriented business, but my birth there was purely out of blizzard related circumstances… not wealth or social status …and so it continues. I moved out to San Francisco as a wee one and so started my “California native” status. I have lived all around the bay area, wine country, and most of Southern California. I have also done a little over a half a year’s stint in Mississippi, but that is a series of tales for another time.
I don’t like loud noises unless it is coming from me or my respective party. I cry too easily. I laugh even easier. I have always had a passion for films of all sorts. It is a blessing and a curse that I am eclectic when it comes to movies, music & books AND I have no qualms experiencing them over and over again. Never gets old. Waste of time or it’s just my “thing” …depends on your point of view. I don’t have cable …I have become a firm believer in just owning the good stuff on dvds and relying on the internet to meet my Conan O’Brien needs. Fresh flowers in my home, time at Disneyland, a plain ol’ coffee frappuccino …even on a cold day, trying to find ways to do nice things for others…it really does make you happier, cookie dough out of the freezer, not wearing pants, a good day of bargain hunting, a beautiful meal, dancing (in varying forms of venues and not always to music), spending time with those I love, and of course anything to do with my beloved mutt (and I mean mutt in the most literal translation possible) Bowser …these all fall into the category of “little” things that matter to me and make my world a better place.
I am also a fan of run on sentences.
I don’t consider myself a religious person. I believe that there’s something bigger out there but my views are pretty undefined. I don’t take issue with anybody else’s views so long as they are not forcing it on me or hurting other people with it. Spirituality should be a personally enriching thing …not an excuse to pass judgment or hate. My political views lean strongly to the liberal side. However, I also am starting to think more and more that it’s all relative when it comes to politicians. “Libertarian” is looking like a pretty good box to check. Regardless, I hold my right to vote dear and exercise it at every given opportunity.
I was a more than capable student, when I felt like it. I am thinking about going back to school again but I wanted to be more certain of what I wanted to study first. We all know school is a time and money investment. I grew up wanting to be an astronaut, a computer animator, PR rep, actress (hey! No school required! Nor is there a proverbial ladder to climb …downside) and the list continues. I did end up hunkering down and pursued teaching. I soon realized while fulfilling my time as a student performing required hours in the classroom, it was not how I wanted to spend my life. Yes, it is a more than worthwhile way to spend a life. No, the reality wasn’t my cup of tea. In this day an age, the teaching aspect doesn’t actually seem to come first.
So, I’ve been spending my “professional” time floating from one customer service job to another. Coffee shops, video stores, administrative gigs and most currently a steady position at Trader Joe’s. All the above have been fascinating glimpses into the human psyche, but not a rewarding way to devote that many hours of my life. It has become an indispensible act to write up the collective antidotes from an amused perspective, it would otherwise be a soul sucking situation indeed. Now you see why I am taking another gander at school.
I’m not a rocket scientist but I have come to discover that I am far more intelligent than the average citizen (so much so, it is down right frightening). It seems like a waste to just wake up, go to a job I can hardly stand, come home physically and mentally drained, go to sleep …then get up and do it again. I know most people, except for the very lucky, go through the same thing in their own ways. It’s all part of the game. But I refuse to settle. I’m going to keep seeking what will interest me and make me happy. I’ve spent most of my life writing all my thoughts and observations down …I have just now decided to start pursuing this with a broader audience.
I’m going to keep seeking bigger and better things. In the meantime, I will continue to savor life’s daily privileges and eyeball the less savory with annoyance, amusement and I hope …wit. It’s the only way I know how.