back on “the horse” …again

April 6th, 2012

if only we could all show such vigor & focus in our respective saddles…

I will not be diluted enough to make any grand promises of even keeping up daily, but I have told myself I should at least make some effort posting here.  Simply because I enjoy it.  I’m sure it’s apparent that my life has been consumed by school.  Oh has it.  I’ve ruled pretty much everything else out because this semester seems to have presented an especially large challenge in simply grasping and retaining the material.  It scares me not to “get it” because I’ve FINALLY chosen a path I WANT to pursue with the vigor shown above …so to have such a hard time understanding all that I need to know is consuming me to a very “all work, no play makes Ariel…”

…well, you know how the saying goes.  The other thing completely eating up my time and energy is self-inflicted.  I rescued another dog.  A baby that requires constant attention.  I swear, no more “casually perusing” the dog rescue sites ever again.  Hell, I could make a whole blog just posting adorable photos of my dogs, but my intuition says that’s filed under “Sad Crazy Lady” …so I’ll just speckle that stuff in.  Her name is Samus (Sam for short).  She is currently a bit over 4 months old, we’ve had her since she was just about 3 months old. She’s half Queensland Heeler and part mutt. The word you’re looking for is ENERGY (and very intelligent, in that scary way the raptors in Jurassic Park were …she’ll sort out the door knobs any day now).  But I love her already.  She’s work and has stolen some of my marbles in the process, but I’m glad she’s here.  Bowser went through a much expected spoiled “only child” phase …he still dips into it.   But, he is learning to appreciate her.  I suspect when she gets a little more mature he’ll adore her.  She worships him.  She has from day one and is unwilling to take rejection from him.

So that’s it.  Mainly two things monopolizing absolutely all of my time and energy.  Dogs and school. I am grateful for both but also dreamily think about the day when life opens up a little more for other things.  I have all these great clothes that need to be worn places, things to be seen that doesn’t involve dog barf or Netflix (my only current escape …Netflix, not the dog barf), conversations to be had that aren’t school-related, meals to be eaten that aren’t in my house, books to be read  that aren’t text books/flash cards/Google… I’m just impatient.  I’m honestly pretty happy as a homebody.  I’m just ready to absorb the knowledge (and REALLY GET IT so I can start getting BETTER at it) and for the pups to fully adjust and be okay on their own for some period of time longer than an hour.

The phrase “This is your life, right now, you’re living it” or any variation of that annoys me.  I mean, it’s true, yes.  But it’s annoying.  Stop pressuring me.  It makes me feel like I’m going to look up from all this and wonder what happened.  I’m already sort of beating myself up for how I spent my 20s.  However, what are you going to do?! We all figure things out at our own rate.  That whole “youth is wasted on the young” ….another worthwhile expression.  Heh, says the 31 year old, “shut up 31 year old” says the even older me.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I should head back to my school work.  Yes, this is technically considered my “Spring Break” but as I have been struggling along to get things that seem to come a lot easier to others, I am spending mine working on a massive project others have since turned in.  It’s not due until coming back from the “break.” But some don’t have to worry about it because BAM BAM BAM, DONE! was how it went for them…while others …are still working on the first BAM.

But I’m here, I’m alive and trucking along doing the best I can, determined to be awesome even when the awesome doesn’t come naturally (gasp).  Thought I’d put that out there for anyone wondering, or if nothing else, it’s a good reminder to myself.

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have a coke and a smile (or just a smile)

January 27th, 2012

Awww! (Disneyland: a happy place for one and all)

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it’s moments like this I wish I had long skinny legs

January 27th, 2012

“Oh …hey …just hanging out looking fabulous in my pirate knee socks …pants-free is the way for me!”

I’m fine with my short strong legs.  I generally don’t have super model envy.  Short is adorable (and highly underestimated in a scrappy fight …I could head butt this lady in the stomach because that’s where my eye line would be …she literally wouldn’t see me coming: SURPRISE!).  But sometimes I see outfits that I know for a fact can only be pulled off with long lanky stems.  I’m not saying I’d strut around in the outfit above (or how about I totally would), but it would be nice to know the option is on the table.

It’d also be nice to be able to reach things in the kitchen cabinets without having to climb on the counters like a child trying to reach the cookies.  I’m a grownup (or so the numbers dictate) cookies should be easily accessible to me by now!  Sigh.

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“I’ve got daddy issues” …and I want to sing it from the roof tops!

January 27th, 2012

Yes, I will hang this right over the bed …how dark is my sense of humor?

I’ve been looking around for something fantastic to hang over my bed.  I specifically want a stretched canvas piece that will stretch across.  I love how it looks and it won’t kill me when it comes crashing down in an earthquake.  It’s not the easiest format/size to find.

I did come across some cool pieces by artist Nikki Galapon.  One of which is the piece above.  I dig the colors and font.  But I don’t feel compelled to hang it on my wall.  The thing that struck me as amusing was the vision of a single gal hanging that over her bed.  A date comes to her place and sees this neon sign straight up saying “I’VE GOT DADDY ISSUES” over the very place he wants to be.  99% of guys would be in their head going “Ooh, oh, man…ah well, let’s DO this!” and carry on …then wonder why things start getting weird.

Hey, I can say what I want.  I grapple daily with said issue.  For a long time I tried to act like I moved past that point and moved forward but the truth is, you can’t …not completely.  It leaves a hole.  I think I’ve grown more adjusted over time and it’s not to say all women with “daddy issues” (and there are a LOT of us, in one way or another) are train wrecks you don’t want to touch.  That’s a case by case sort of thing.  HOWEVER, if you come across a gal with an industrial “daddy issue” sign over her bed …or say she has a pair of velour pants that say it in rhinestones across the butt …run.

As I was saying before, the artist has other cool pieces and I don’t even dislike the piece in question …I just saw it and had that amusing vision and felt compelled to share.

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they have a fight. triangle wins. triangle man. *accordion solo*

January 27th, 2012

For no particular reason, I’ve been having a huge Renaissance with  with They Might Be Giants‘ “Particle Man.”  Everyone has that song they put on, and without fail, they feel warmer and fuzzier …at the moment, this song does that for me.  Any time my fella wants to make me laugh, he puts “Cotton Eye Joe” on.  No, I don’t regard it as a great song …it’s simply the dumbest song ever which equals hilarious to me.  However, THIS song is a prolific nostalgic song.  I dare you to not to do some sort of slow hippy dance to it while you clap your hands, I dare you.

(I’m pretty sure it’s playing some sort of role regarding mental warfare for poor Bowser…)

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